anotakuami

It's 2023 now and boy it's been a wild ride, hasn't it? Hopefully this new year will be a better one, stay safe and awesome all of you. :P

Hello hello! First year of school is done for the summer! I actually learned a lot about 3D art and animation and can officially call myself a game developer! I used to be one of those, ugh 3D before I realized I really like it after all. Maybe because I'm more of a hands on learner. I made actual games with teams we put together with the other 3D programs in the school and it was exciting to see all the hard work we put into it. I actually think I found something I really enjoy and have a career in. I had to get a brand new desktop PC to run the programs needed for my school work, so I ended up getting a new drawing tablet for myself and opened up a whole new world of how I do art now. :U It's one of those kind with the screen on it so its nice to be able to draw details. 3D models of characters soon to be posted in gallery? -Yes! Where'd you go? -Busy with school and work at the moment. Twitter? -Trying to post something on there.

After much debating and hmm hawwing and being a procrastinator; and saying to myself, 'eff you anxiety and covid-19!!!111', I decided to put together a new portfolio to go back to school. Before I didn't take it seriously and well didn't really apply myself, also tuition was expensive soooo yeah. But now I am hecking ready to be focused on my studies and looking forward to the gaming industry.

Its been crazy.

'I was with it'

Looks like I'll have to reacquaint myself with DeviantArt again! In the meantime, I started re-watching anime again and revisiting old fandoms from way back when. I also bought myself some new art software that I'm really excited to use, as soon as I figure out what the hell I'm trying to do on it. Maybe a new tablet in the far flung future??? OH I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHAT 'JOJO'S BIZARRE ADVENTURE' WAS ABOUT BACK IN MARCH. And I was like, 'what a weird anime', and 'ohhhhh that's where those memes come from,' and, 'holy fuck why haven't I watched this before?' Searching out for all the weird anime I can find on Crunchyroll, I discovered some favorites to add to my watchlist! I recommend 'Dr. Stone'. Also I've been adding to my manga collection for new series as well! And it hit me a couple months ago after SakuraCon that I can buy all the doujinshi I want on the internet so I don't have to worry about buying it at conventions once a year and stuff. I guess it didn't occur to me until I took the time to actually browse my bookmarks and I was like, 'what the fuck is wrong with me lol.' (IT DOUBLED, YASSSSS.) But it makes sense that I've been throwing myself into my real life more often and preparing myself to go back to school. :U I'm excited when that day comes because portfolios and this time I'll actually be able focus better now. And I've been thinking...that as much as I love my original projects that I've been working on for a long time now, I want to do fan art again, but this time focusing on stuff I've been too shy to draw for, but I really love throughout the years. Like Legend of Zelda, or Monster Hunter. ALSO TO GET CRACKING DOWN ON ART THINGS PEOPLE HAVE ASKED ME FOR LONG AGO BUT NEVER GOT AROUND TO DOING because anxiety and depression and I just had no motivation to do anything.

I keep telling myself I can do it and I know I can, but that stupid little voice in my head says, 'NO GIVE UPPPPPPP NOWWWWWWWWW.' So I decided to try and to tell that voice, 'NO U. SUCK DIDDLY BALLS AND WHATEVER, FUCK. I DO WHAT I WANT AND YOU WON'T STOP ME.' I guess the whole point to this, is that I'll probably jump back in with cool stuff but my brain will probably laugh at my feeble attempt and well shit, I'm gonna try and surge forward with the intensity of a THOUSAND SUNS?! WE'll seeeeee. Oh and have a naked sketch of Cupid there. I'm not sure if you can see it though. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ALSO, THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!